Sta.sh
So if you're interested by one commission from me then don't hesitate to send me a note about what you would like me to do. I'm open to do many things: Anime, Comic, Anthro, Sonic, OC, FC, Fan Art, Ecchi and whatever you want, as long as it isn't ultra-realism, and as long as the request isn't offensive or related to any kind of Hate Art.
Life is funny.
We're more than 7 billions humans on Earth. During your whole life you meet thousands of them, furtively or not. Among this huge amount of people, some of them become acquaintances. And among those acquaintances, some of them become friends and close ones to you.
But even among this little amount of people "sorted" inconsciently (or not) from the whole humanity and that you're used to frequent, it happens that some of them manage to even more separate themselves from that little crowd that these "close ones" constitute. You get even closer to each other, links are forged, and some unexplainables feelings are born and lead you to care a lot about these persons, to blindly try to give them your help as much as possible, and to give support with all your strength without really being able to put words about why. And this, until the well-being of an only close one become actually one of your main concerns.
The problem occurs when you figure out that you need a lot this person as well.
The presence of this only need already means that something is wrong, because something is lacking, and it is generally at this moment that you realize this loved one has also become the main source of a pain. That's what I call the "Great Paradox". You know it, but you can't do anything against this. The links previously built have become a sorta vicious prison and your own well-being can become freakishly affected because of that only one person. That one person you learnt to know, among these billions ones. That tiny being.
The reason is here, the heart is the troll.
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I just fucking give up.
Life is a game. Our soul incarnates here to raise her level. To help her (and thus you) process your F.E.A.R.J :
F.ears
E.go
A.nger : why do you let others install triggers inside you to emotionnaly react despite of You ?
R.eact/righten
J.udgmemt
Try spend one day without fear, without talking about yourself except when asked, without getting angry at anything (you may be disappointed, feel sorrow but no anger), without reacting to anything or needing to righten anything (là j'ai perdu ^^) and without judging anyone else, including you? then you shall see light at the end of the black tunnel that the incarnate life is for your Soul.
Je pense que je vais méditer là-dessus.
Merci mille fois.
You're a great person! Animo, que la vida solo es hacia adelante
We can either give up and become an island (some bitter "intellectuals" prefer this) or pick ourselves up, tape our hearts together and keep moving.
As someone who is always mending his own heart for one reason or another, you have my sympathy, support and friendship.
But I hope that you will be OK.